life is life.

I just love Diane Kruger. She's always so beautiful and she has such good style! Love what she's wearing on this photo.

Anywayyy...I think I'm going to start painting. I've done it sometimes just for the heck of it and I love it, it gives you some kind of release of frustration....beats kicking something or screaming. Kind of gives you a feeling of accomplishment plus it's really relaxing and distracting.

I'm just so confused these days. Don't know what the f*** I'm doing. Can't anybody just tell me what to do with my life? Hate having to make these decisions...but where's the rush? There is no rush. Don't you just hate the phase in your life where you don't really know where you stand? You've finished college, don't quite know what you want to do in university or what you want to be when you "grow up". Shit. I just get so frustrated with myself not knowing what to do and not being able to make decisions and when I make a decision I doubt that it was the right one (but I'm lucky in the way that I really don't care...I've already done it and can't turn back) and the lack of self control and just....yarayarayara. It's not that I care that much, I know I'll get there it's just that I'm always so worried about what other people will think. What will all my friends say, what will my parents say? Well fuck it. What's meant to be will be? Or is it your life is what you make of it? I belive.....that it's what's meant to be will be. Well or a little bit of both....70/30?

I say....I'm a student in life, I'm learning as I'm going and I can't always get it right and I'm allowed to make mistakes right? RIGHT!

Well bloody hell that's enough to think about for now. I'm out.

....Scotland in 8 days! Can't wait. I've got a reaaaaaally good feeling about it.

Love,
S.